I had mixed feelings today because one part of me felt happy and the other part felt sad. Happy because I won’t be bothered about following so many rules and structures married women follow. I don’t need to be constantly bothered about what to cook for my Husband and sad because my companion had travelled and I am all alone. But I really had no time to ruminate over this. Gone he was but life must go on. Well, it was more sleeping than working. You see I had slept late the previous night due to the travel preparations and I was not about to let nature cheat me. I grabbed every sleep I could find.
“Mommy, Mommy, Mommy” Ladi shouted.
“Alice where is Mommy?” Ladi asked.
I could hear their voices at a distant and I knew I had to be awake, I couldn’t let them feel lonely. No, not with the departure of their Dad.
“I am here” I said.
They ran to me giving me a hug. Ladi was just two years old but she was smarter than her age and Alice was 6 years old.
“Mommy where is daddy?” Alice asked.
“He has travelled.” I said.
“Uh uh” She muttered.
“Ok, children we should go to church.” I said.
They got excited. Children are always that way, they live in the present and they don’t dwell on the past. They jumped into the car and off we went, but then there was this strange sound emitting from the car, the car was not accelerating. It remained at 20km no matter how hard I pressed the accelerator and the knocking sound from the engine just got louder. I began thinking of all the financial implications of fixing the car and resolved within myself to keep driving the car in its state. Then the smoke began emitting from the bonnet, I panicked and came to a halt in the middle of the road.
“Go find person wen go drive you” The bus driver shouted
“Yeye woman wetin dey even do you” Another driver said
“You wan cause accident? If na send then send you, tell them say you no see me.” Another driver shouted.
“Mommy we are not moving.” Alice said.
“I know, the car is faulty.” I said calmly.
My eyes were teary, I was really fighting off the tears to no avail.
“Faulty?” She giggled.
Ladi giggled too.
Ladi always does and repeat whatever Alice says. I used to find this intriguing and sometimes entertaining. But today was different, I was just fed up.
I started the car again and it responded. I drove slowly and did a U turn, praying at every point that I could get to the house before the car finally stops.